My thoughts are a jumbled mess right now.

I'm writing this blog post more for myself than anyone else. I'm looking at this entry as a public journal. I'm hoping that when I put my thoughts down, I'll be able to move on and get some editing done. I posted on my Facebook page that I was having difficulty editing the fourth book in this series and I'm writing this to explain why.

I need to give you all some background information. I started writing in June of 2012. BlackMoon Beginnings was the first book I every tried to write. It was the first time I ever even thought about writing novels and putting the crazy ideas in my mind on paper. Before that, I thought that being an author was some unobtainable profession that only those with insane amounts of talent could ever reach. 

When I first started writing, I didn't think about publishing. I didn't think about letting others read my story. In fact, I didn't let anyone read my books for months afterwards. I'm a big supporter of indie authors and I've read a lot of blog posts where they stated that their first novel was horrible. I went into this writing process thinking that BlackMoon Beginnings was just going to be trial run. That once I had that book written, I'd be able to move forward and create better pieces that hopefully someone else would like to read one day. I never thought that anything would come from writing that book, but so much has. So many great things have happened because of that book.

It's been a year since Ryanne became real to me. It's been a year since Colton first made himself known. It's been a year since Liam first jumped down from that tree and gave his pendant away. One year. I was with these characters and the inside the mage world almost every day since June of 2012. I've spent the last year with these characters--these characters that now feel so real to me that every time I start editing the fourth book, I realize that sooner or later it has to end. Eventually during the editing process, I'm going to reach the words THE END on the last page of this manuscript. For some reason, that makes me really sad. In fact, I have tears in my eyes as I'm writing this post.

Though the entire book is written and I already know everything that's going to happen, the thought that this series is almost complete scares me. I'm not really why. Once I finish editing, that's it. I think that this is something that others writers can relate to more. Something inside me is terrified to finish editing this book, and I'm really not sure why. This will always be my first series. It'll be the series that I look back on years down the road.

These characters are my babies. These characters have been with me through the entire process. It's because of them that I even have people visiting this blog and potentially reading this post. It's because of them that so many great things have happened recently. I know that I wrote them, blah blah blah, but the Prophesized Series is their story. Though I've been working on other novels, a part of me knew that there was still the mage world for me to go back to. This is the world that you all want to know more about.

Yes, I still plan on writing Claire's story and maybe a series of short stories concluding everyone's storyline. Heck, I even have a small idea for a companion novel written in the past (like 1800s-1850s time frame) about mages, but none of those books are a continuation of this series. While this may not be the last time I see these characters, this'll be the last time I see them in this series. That probably doesn't make sense, but I don't know how else to explain it.

To this day, I don't call myself an author and I probably never will. I'm a writer. I don't think that'll ever change. I'm just a writer and not even that good of one, but it means so much to me that you guys have grabbed onto this series and fully embraced it. I'm not ready to say goodbye to these characters, but I know that all good things must come to end. I'm hoping that everyone who read and enjoyed this series will continue to stick with me even when it is over. You guys have been amazing and I hope that I continue to write about characters that you'll love and want to know more about.

I'm still going to be sad as I continue to edit, but now that I've written all of that, I do feel like I can move forward and get this book ready for you guys to read in a few months. I hope it'll be worth the wait and though it may not seem like, I'm really excited for you to read it.

*I wrote this really fast, so I apologize if there's a lot of errors.*

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